I’m pulling back the curtain on my gambling addiction. Since I have already written a book and laid my life out on the line, and the fact that I have tended to journal through the rough spots in life, I have decided to give you a better look into my thoughts at the time of my struggles. I am posting random journal entries with the hope that you will find comfort in knowing that you aren’t alone and that there is hope. You can find them under the category of Take a Peek. I have used these experiences to strengthen my coaching and understanding. Please keep me in mind when you are ready for help. Here we go:
9-12-06 2:37 am
Oh, I just love to gamble, and win. But, how little I win and how often am I coherent enough to enjoy it? I promised myself I wouldn’t play after I sold the house…I quit after every time I lose (usually).
I actually took a loss break tonight. All I could think about was going back to gamble.
I’m lonely. I miss the feeling of someone lovingly touching me. I miss having sex. I miss the passion.
I miss having problems other than my addiction.